Thoughts

 The last 3 days I proved to myself that I am still strong. Every morning, after emile's walk, I have been attacking the overgrown yard. Monday, I stacked about 20 feet of firewood that I am so lucky to have from my landlord...then I went for a swim. It was sunny so the beach was crowded....So happy to get into the sea after some physical labor.

Tuesday I went after the shrub like area in the front of the house. My clippers are not so sharp but I spent about 2 hours cutting back an area of about 20 x 5 foot...and dragging al of the discard into compost...hard work.

Today, I borrowed the clippers from my landlord and cut back the bamboo forest that was threatening the yard. It as quiet the job...he even said...very hard, yes?

yes...I cut and then dragged huge pieces of bamboo up to the parking area. It was hard work. ...then it started to rain...

I ran down to the sea hoping for rain, but it was just grey...no one was there...but I was able to spend my 30 minutes in the bluish grey sea....relaxing, letting all of the stress go....such a good thing for me.

I do not hesitate. The sea is deep and a little rough to start...once in, I just float...float and stretch and let all of the stress go. To be clear, I cannot lay back and float, I have vertigo...I also have to have good earplugs in as I cannot get water in my ears...( I have not yet felt dizzy or seasick in the sea...only on land) I never think about the deepness. I am a swimmer and a water lover. It is a joy for me to be there, floating, watching the waves, sailboats, planes coming in. I never worry about being in the water. Life is much scarier for me.